pain

 if i knew there was a way to do it painlessly 

instantly and with totality 

i would slip away in quick haste 

leave the torture of my life behind 

another breath i would not waste 

disappear without a trace 

i know there would be pain to follow 

questions and blame i could not erase 

no one person caused this 

and no one person can stop it 

the losses stack up much too high -

the reminders of potential squandered

weigh like the atmosphere i must escape 

addiction calling me from the ether 

run towards an other way